我不知道该说什么，我想说上帝的意愿，是把每个人的头脑潜能都开发出来，这样综合起来的能量是巨大的，人类文明才会快速进步。我想说，当年奥特曼帝国的少壮派，野心勃勃，已经完全佔据了，控制了丝绸之路亚洲通往欧洲的所有网络. 虽然不开发农业，但每年的商贸收益，足够让苏坦王哈里发们过上优渥的日子。可是因为贪婪，因为不愿分享，逼得欧洲人宁愿从海上，绕过路上丝绸之路，经过非洲，从远道开辟新的贸易渠道。从此亚洲西部的伊斯兰世界的丝绸之路没落了，一蹶不振。看见55岁就死的张首晟，想想近十年来，我提心吊胆害怕生活里的鬼魅。我失去工作，失去可能的辉煌前景，时时刻刻保护Jackie安全。我在这样子的环境下，会有辉煌前景吗？是不是我没有死，没有精神崩溃，没有得忧郁症，还是幸运的？我来美国满怀希望和信心，我相信我自己有本事，我相信我能做一番事业，有所贡献，我相信我这一生不会浪费。可是我从心底里失望，觉得我来错地方。这边的教育制度，入大学之前把孩子层层筛选掉，我自己要花额外的精力金钱为Jackie寻找好的教育资源。上次习和王找到对Jackie造成伤害的单位，他们答应给我赔偿。结果呢？那个人过两天居然死了。摔死的吗？被火烧死的吗？被毒死的吗？得忧郁症自杀的吗？发神经病，车祸死的吗？莫名其妙死的吗？伤害别人的，对社会有负能量的，怎么还在害人，到现在还不死？

 

I do not know what to say, I would like to say that God's will is to develop the potential of each person's mind, so that the combined energy is huge, human civilization will have rapid progress. I would say that the ambition of the Ottoman Empire was completely conquering, controlling all the networks of Silk Road from Asia to Europe. Although agriculture was not developed, the annual profit from trading was enough to make a good living for King Sultans and Caliphates. But their greediness, and unwillingness to share, had forced Europeans to open new avenues of trade by sea, avoiding the Silk Road, through Africa, and from afar. Since then, the Silk Road of the Islamic world in western Asia has declined and has never recovered. I saw 55-year-old Zhang Shousheng died, think about the last decade, the ghosts made my life miserable I! I've lost my job, I've lost my potential for glory, and I've to kept Jackie safe all the time. Will I have a bright future in this environment? Right now, I am not dead, not having a nervous breakdown, not suffering from depression, or am I really fortunate? I came to the United States full of hope that I have confidence, I believe that I have the ability, I believe that I can do something, to contribute, I believe that my life will not be wasted. However I am disappointed from the bottom of my heart, I feel that I came to the wrong place. On this side the education system is sorting kids out before entering college, I have to invest extra energy and money to find a good education resources for Jackie. Last time Xi and Wang found the related organization that did harm to Jackie and they promised to give me compensation. And what happened? The man died in two days later!!! Was he falling to death? Was he burnt to death? Poisoned? To commit suicide with depression? Got Crazy, killed in a car accident? Dead for no reason? Harm others, have negative energy to the society, how come those are still harming people, still not die up to now?